OK I officially hate jeans day....& it's mostly Advocare's fault. I almost was late to work since I pulled the jeans that fit me just hunky-dory fine last Friday out of the clean clothes basket & now they don't fit... I know totally sucks huh? It's not why you might think they don't fit....LOL
I'm going out during lunch & getting a belt out of my bag, as I feel like a gangsta pulling my pants up every 25 min. if I leave my desk. I almost lost my PJ bottoms out with the dogs this AM too. (Don't worry I was wearing a housecoat) So no free shows... This weekend if it has an "L" on it it's going away as they are the ones that are size "L" are just dropping off of me. Wearing high heels & jeans too. Apparently, casual Friday doesn't involve gym shoes. Guess I'll have to switch them out when I go walk to get lunch. E&G's coupons 50% off were great I get 2 lunches (since 1 sandwich lasts 2 meals) for like $2.50 with the paper coupon! paid .71 cents for a sandwich extra (2 meals mind you)
9:35am~ Choc. MRS ~LOVE them, but I know people are probably getting sick of hearing me say that.
Today it was challenging to drink. I'm just not hungry... which is totally becoming the norm. I still can't believe I used the word challenging & chocolate in the same sentence & it wasn't regarding eating like a TON of it or something...
But yet somehow disappointing, since I really do like them. Perhaps I might need to switch it up this weekend & go back on MNS 3 instead to see how it does. (3 is for wellness not mostly appetite control like "C") but I might wait another 14 days yet.... I wanted to possibly try "e" for energy but think that might just be a bit too much energy for during the week days, if I don't work it out of my system later on in the day.... not to mention my "e" got sold already, so I'd have to wait possibly a week to do that anyways unless I asked for an exchange from an uplink. I bought 4 btls of Catalyst on sale & split some shipping... I've got all but 1 of them already sold before they even come in...4 days from now.
12:15pm. Still not hungry but took my 30min pre-pills at noon.
1pm~ finally got around to eating 1/2 a wheat "Narmer" from E&G it was really good & filling, I'm full. I also had them take the mayo off of it since it has guac. on it too.
3:50pm~ Snack time of some cashews & some dried raspberries (not even a serving)
dinner~ Cheese burger single with 1Tbs. guac & 4 mac & cheese breaded baked bites. (Technically dessert really)
Friday, April 8, 2011
Thursday, April 7, 2011
THU 4/7
Since I was running EARLY this AM. (which is getting much easier to do) now that the cold is removing it's unwanted germs from my body. I decided to try on a skirt that has NEVER fit me since I'd bought it about 5 years ago. It's a size.... 6! Yep, buttoned right up. tiny bit snug but not to the point that I can't breath sitting down at my desk.
9-10am Breakfast~Choc. MRS & 1/2 scoop grape Spark
12:30pm ~lunch 1/2 bun with remainder of fish/cheese leftovers from yesterday & mashed potatoes. Carb intake for today has been completed. LOL
2pm~ 120 cal. jello dessert 3pm still picking at same said cup. Apparently, I wasn't that hungry for a snack.
3pm~1/2 scoop Pink Lemonade Spark... We'll know later tonight if I'm going to regret doing it so late in the day. I didn't sleep all that well last night due to being a little achy.
6:15pm~ Worked out at SNAP on some machine that's a cross between a stair & ellipical machine for 15 min. It's NOT a stride machine but is exclusive to SNAP fitness ctrs. It really kicked my butt (but I let it) since I ramped it up & did a pretty good workout. I went & did some walking outside too a little later on didn't want to do too much since it was a relatively resting day for workouts for me.
grape rehydrate. I Sparked someone for tomorrow that I'd met at SNAP she seemed pretty nice I'd like to hang out with her more & got another RSVP to Amanda's mixer from a Zumba client. So it was going well... hopefully there will be enough chairs there for it. It's always nice to meet new people & is a great conversation starter too!
Dinner 8pm~ not really hungry had 1.5c. hamb. helper remix with all the extra veggies we usually add into the "helper".
Was 2 whole days behind on FB so I wasn't happy about that, I got caught up but didn't get to bed as early as I'd wanted too.
.5c. juice & tsp L-glutamine. Basically routine since I workout at least a little almost every day it seems.
9-10am Breakfast~Choc. MRS & 1/2 scoop grape Spark
12:30pm ~lunch 1/2 bun with remainder of fish/cheese leftovers from yesterday & mashed potatoes. Carb intake for today has been completed. LOL
2pm~ 120 cal. jello dessert 3pm still picking at same said cup. Apparently, I wasn't that hungry for a snack.
3pm~1/2 scoop Pink Lemonade Spark... We'll know later tonight if I'm going to regret doing it so late in the day. I didn't sleep all that well last night due to being a little achy.
6:15pm~ Worked out at SNAP on some machine that's a cross between a stair & ellipical machine for 15 min. It's NOT a stride machine but is exclusive to SNAP fitness ctrs. It really kicked my butt (but I let it) since I ramped it up & did a pretty good workout. I went & did some walking outside too a little later on didn't want to do too much since it was a relatively resting day for workouts for me.
grape rehydrate. I Sparked someone for tomorrow that I'd met at SNAP she seemed pretty nice I'd like to hang out with her more & got another RSVP to Amanda's mixer from a Zumba client. So it was going well... hopefully there will be enough chairs there for it. It's always nice to meet new people & is a great conversation starter too!
Dinner 8pm~ not really hungry had 1.5c. hamb. helper remix with all the extra veggies we usually add into the "helper".
Was 2 whole days behind on FB so I wasn't happy about that, I got caught up but didn't get to bed as early as I'd wanted too.
.5c. juice & tsp L-glutamine. Basically routine since I workout at least a little almost every day it seems.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
WED 4/6~SNARF IT ALL!
Breakfast 1/2 of a non-Advocare MRS... the rest got pitched... once again if it doesn't taste good I'm not going to bother drinking it. I had some higher hopes as I'd been told that it tasted good.... I was wrong. about 70 cal.
was consumed. I didn't feel very full either afterwards.
Grape Spark.
Thank goodness for MNS "C" as lunch was at 12:20pm Red Lobster~ 1 cheddar biscut, I ordered the crunchy fish sandwich with tomatoes... WAIT.... before you go & say it was fried.... I took 1 of the fish patties w/ cheese off of it (they put 2 huge amounts on it) and top 1/2 of the bun off. I also put the mashed potatoes into the to-go box right away. so it was 1/2 the bun 1 fish patty w/ cheese, tomatoes & lettuce on it. The server was like... you want a box right away? Puzzled look on his face... I'm like when you get a chance. I felt like saying, "dude, I just spent 5 mo. getting fat off my body, I know I can't eat this all in 1 sitting anymore & TOTALLY know I shouldn't!"
Anyways, off to Curves & S N'S for 2.5 hours of Zumba!
5pm~MRS for dinner
Yes, I made it thru 2.5 hours of Zumba... man was I beat.
.5c juice with L-glutamine for bed time.
was consumed. I didn't feel very full either afterwards.
Grape Spark.
Thank goodness for MNS "C" as lunch was at 12:20pm Red Lobster~ 1 cheddar biscut, I ordered the crunchy fish sandwich with tomatoes... WAIT.... before you go & say it was fried.... I took 1 of the fish patties w/ cheese off of it (they put 2 huge amounts on it) and top 1/2 of the bun off. I also put the mashed potatoes into the to-go box right away. so it was 1/2 the bun 1 fish patty w/ cheese, tomatoes & lettuce on it. The server was like... you want a box right away? Puzzled look on his face... I'm like when you get a chance. I felt like saying, "dude, I just spent 5 mo. getting fat off my body, I know I can't eat this all in 1 sitting anymore & TOTALLY know I shouldn't!"
Anyways, off to Curves & S N'S for 2.5 hours of Zumba!
5pm~MRS for dinner
Yes, I made it thru 2.5 hours of Zumba... man was I beat.
.5c juice with L-glutamine for bed time.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Tues 4/5~ what fun a dentist day!
ok so my whole AM was totally out of schedule. My AM dentist appt. ran way late. Good news is that my blood pressure DRAMATICALLY dropped. Amazing what dropping 38lbs. will do for that...
10:45am~ choc. MRS for super late breakfast.
12:50pm~ lunch spinach wrap with 98% fat free turkey, 1 slice colby cheese & guac., 1 ~120 cal. dark choc. mousse cup & 1 clementine (some wasn't sweet & I threw a segment out).
Thinking about a snack 4:30pm might have a few dried raspberries.
Zumba in the circuit 30 min. Curves of Onalaska. (forgot to take my Catalyst) I'm TOTALLY taking it tomorrow!
7:30pm some guac. & guac. organic naturals chips. not many like 1 serving.
8:10pm Dinner 1.5 c. hamburger helper made with almond milk, 1.5c. drk choc. almond milk. peas & green beans & some ice cream therapy. (only 1 serving) I feel horrible afterwards... It tasted really good & luckily my hubby was there to stop me. Emotional eating it I think, not very sure. Still kinda miffed I only lost like 1-1.5 lbs. this week but I can't trust that dumb scale anyways & it wasn't a gain week & I'd done a TON of Zumba Toning the past week... I dunno perhaps it's time for bed. I don't like people poking at my gums either & the cold did feel good. Some issues came up today at work that kinda stressed me out, but don't really want to talk much about. (it wasn't about the Advocare job issues or anything). I ate too much food again... I should have stopped before dessert or something again.
1/2 c. juice & 1tbs. L-glutamine.
10:45am~ choc. MRS for super late breakfast.
12:50pm~ lunch spinach wrap with 98% fat free turkey, 1 slice colby cheese & guac., 1 ~120 cal. dark choc. mousse cup & 1 clementine (some wasn't sweet & I threw a segment out).
Thinking about a snack 4:30pm might have a few dried raspberries.
Zumba in the circuit 30 min. Curves of Onalaska. (forgot to take my Catalyst) I'm TOTALLY taking it tomorrow!
7:30pm some guac. & guac. organic naturals chips. not many like 1 serving.
8:10pm Dinner 1.5 c. hamburger helper made with almond milk, 1.5c. drk choc. almond milk. peas & green beans & some ice cream therapy. (only 1 serving) I feel horrible afterwards... It tasted really good & luckily my hubby was there to stop me. Emotional eating it I think, not very sure. Still kinda miffed I only lost like 1-1.5 lbs. this week but I can't trust that dumb scale anyways & it wasn't a gain week & I'd done a TON of Zumba Toning the past week... I dunno perhaps it's time for bed. I don't like people poking at my gums either & the cold did feel good. Some issues came up today at work that kinda stressed me out, but don't really want to talk much about. (it wasn't about the Advocare job issues or anything). I ate too much food again... I should have stopped before dessert or something again.
1/2 c. juice & 1tbs. L-glutamine.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Monday 4/4~ Weigh in day did I make it?
9:45am breakfast~Choc. MRS & grape Spark
Stomach apparently hit the snooze button & didn't inform me it was even time to eat until I noticed the clock & went... well it's 12:15 I should probably take my pre-lunch vitamins as I might be hungry soon... I had gotten out more food to eat but it went back into the fridge as I'm full. Which means stop picking & put it away for possibly a snack later if I need it.
12:45pm lunch~ 1.5c. lettuce (carrot, cabbage mix) & 1 T. Ceasar dressing (NOTHING ELSE ON IT!) & 6 oz. Yoplait Greek yogurt, honey vanilla flavor.
2pm snack 1 gummy worm... seriously... I don't know what possessed me to do it, but it tasted like yucky who knows what.... worms I guess...
1 hour of Zumba with Jonathan. I talked Amanda into going with me. What a trooper doing 2 workouts in a day! We both made it thru class even with a cramp in my side too, which is unusual. I'd gotten one during class too but not sure why either.
FYI~ no afternoon snack other than that yucky 1 worm I tried.
weighed in on the lying scale from SNAP... subtracting it's usual overage I made it to 140! I hope that when I possivly do have a kid, my girls will get larger again. I almost lost my sports bra during Zumba today... nothing to hold it down anymore. :( Lost 2" off my chest measurement in the past 2 mo. I only lost (according to the evil SNAP scale I don't trust) about 1.5lbs. this week. HOWEVER... I did like 5 hrs. of Zumba Toning this week which means pants on the ground (or apparently bras & girls in the air) muscle/fat trimming week & not a big lbs. loss wk. for me. Seems to be par for when I do more than normal amounts of ZT for me in the past few months. So not sweating it too much.
8:40pm... starting to think about dinner. Yeah... this is me typing that i'm STARTING to think about having dinner. 1 portion of Mahi-Mahi. last scoop of the rice & tomatoes, peas & green beans, & a scoop of ice cream & hot fudge... yeah well I needed the comfort food just tonight after that scale betrayed me somewhat. I'm cracking down on me & am not going to have a high cal. dessert for dinner again until Friday (at the earliest).
1/2 cup juice with 1tsp of L-glutamine. Really going to have to try the nighttime recovery... I heard Amanda's been not sore the next day at all after taking it...
Stomach apparently hit the snooze button & didn't inform me it was even time to eat until I noticed the clock & went... well it's 12:15 I should probably take my pre-lunch vitamins as I might be hungry soon... I had gotten out more food to eat but it went back into the fridge as I'm full. Which means stop picking & put it away for possibly a snack later if I need it.
12:45pm lunch~ 1.5c. lettuce (carrot, cabbage mix) & 1 T. Ceasar dressing (NOTHING ELSE ON IT!) & 6 oz. Yoplait Greek yogurt, honey vanilla flavor.
2pm snack 1 gummy worm... seriously... I don't know what possessed me to do it, but it tasted like yucky who knows what.... worms I guess...
1 hour of Zumba with Jonathan. I talked Amanda into going with me. What a trooper doing 2 workouts in a day! We both made it thru class even with a cramp in my side too, which is unusual. I'd gotten one during class too but not sure why either.
FYI~ no afternoon snack other than that yucky 1 worm I tried.
weighed in on the lying scale from SNAP... subtracting it's usual overage I made it to 140! I hope that when I possivly do have a kid, my girls will get larger again. I almost lost my sports bra during Zumba today... nothing to hold it down anymore. :( Lost 2" off my chest measurement in the past 2 mo. I only lost (according to the evil SNAP scale I don't trust) about 1.5lbs. this week. HOWEVER... I did like 5 hrs. of Zumba Toning this week which means pants on the ground (or apparently bras & girls in the air) muscle/fat trimming week & not a big lbs. loss wk. for me. Seems to be par for when I do more than normal amounts of ZT for me in the past few months. So not sweating it too much.
8:40pm... starting to think about dinner. Yeah... this is me typing that i'm STARTING to think about having dinner. 1 portion of Mahi-Mahi. last scoop of the rice & tomatoes, peas & green beans, & a scoop of ice cream & hot fudge... yeah well I needed the comfort food just tonight after that scale betrayed me somewhat. I'm cracking down on me & am not going to have a high cal. dessert for dinner again until Friday (at the earliest).
1/2 cup juice with 1tsp of L-glutamine. Really going to have to try the nighttime recovery... I heard Amanda's been not sore the next day at all after taking it...
4/2 & 4/3 weekend
OK, so apparently i'm slacking on the wknd typing in the blog. I've been fairly good & only cheated a little. I did 2 ~30 min sessions of Zumba in the Circuit on Sat & practically 3 hours of Zumba (regular, toning & aqua on Sunday) I also got in a bit of dog walks & such. I'm confident my weigh in on Monday will be good & I'm hoping to post that I'm 2/3 of the way to my goal already! To think it would take me ALL year to achieve that was reasonable! The rate i'm getting there so far is just nuts! Anyways, hope that's enough for you all.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
FRI 4/1~I Pity the Foo.
AM~ I ate an entire bag of Double Stuft Oreos for breakfast & crushed them up into my MRS....
& poured myself a double shot of grape Spark!
Ha...
OK, I'm totally not fooling anyone...
AM~ I had my Choc. MRS & grape Spark regular amounts.
Lunch 12:30PM ~Kept getting distracted & didn't feel the urge to eat until this time. 3 mo. ago I would have been going.. come on Noon... I'm starving & poking my stomach every 5 min. telling it to shut up & stop growling. 1.5c. spinach & lettuce salad with 5 small green olives & 1 Tbs. Italian dressing, 1HB egg, 1 clementine, 1 small dark choc. mousse jello cup (will pawn other 5 off on hubby) I totally wasn't impressed & won't be eating it again.
~As far as pity the foo title~ I TOTALLY wish I'd heard of Advocare back in Oct... or like anytime in the past 5 years... well now is as good of a time as ever. I'm sorry that I'm SOOO Excited about it, but seriously you'd be too after trying for 6 years to dump almost 35lbs. now. That's 1 BIG A$$ bag of dog kibble I'm not carrying around on my body anymore! I'm not worried when I go in my closet to look for clothes anymore, or go into VS to get a bra. It was always my personal joke that they don't sell fat people clothes at VS because they don't want fat people wearing them... well I can now go there & find my size & that means I'm not one of those "fat people" anymore & hopefully in a few months I'll be able to post i'm once again one of those "skinny people".
I find myself now "these days" in that mythical place that every "morbidly obese" (according to my height/wt. chart when I'd finally started & gave up that just exercise & water would be enough) person only dreams is possible, but never expects to find. The place where all of a sudden, all of "this" just gets...well...easy.
I pack my lunches and prep my dinners, I have my workout schedule & Zumba classes, I'm managing at my job & not worried about what might happen if the granite counter of goodness has something on it at the office, and I have my general plan for the week & how it's going to turn out & most of the time, I'm not that far off! Nothing seems unmanageable, or insurmountable, or impossible. In fact, spring has sprung and everything is looking pretty great! I'm even not hitting snooze as often (unless i'm sick or Gina was interfering with it)
Deep down I know that no one's taking anything from me, because I'm not in a place anymore where I'm going to let them have it. I like my "easy". I've grown very fond of my "easy" and I'm getting quite comfortable in it. So to those that want to take away my "easy" I say - GO GET YOUR OWN EASY!!! *cough* it's for sale online at: ADVOCARE or on the link next to this blog.
One of the major things that always held me back from losing weight and keeping it off in the past was this idea of "easy". I didn't think it was possible. Because it was so unattainable in my mind, I figured it was pointless to even try working towards it, other than thinking exercise was the key to staying skinny like I'd learned over the last decade was the way to do so. That & not to have kids would keep me skinny (obviously, that theory didn't work). It was too far in the distance to be seen - it could only be imagined. Not focusing too hard on the distant future and what it might or might not look like. For me, I know that I'm about to enter uncharted territory as far as my weight is concerned that I haven't seen in 6 years. But, there's an ease that comes with that too because every day I live right now, I know that all I'm doing is taking it one day at a time, and that's all that matters. That's all I can control. Today is mine. Tomorrow will be mine tomorrow & not until. 20, 25 more pounds from now, I'm still going to be living - one day at a time. (And hopefully with as much ease as I've learned to enjoy these past 2 months).
It was also a shock to me to learn that forgetting to eat constantly could also FINALLY be easy... or at least MUCH easier. It's ok to "only eat 1 scoop" & then stop, it will still be there the next day. Or to not eat my fill or money's worth at the AUC2E buffet, or put something back in the fridge for the next meal. But that's also not the easiest fact to digest. As fat people, it is somehow drilled into our subconscious on a daily basis that the only way we are ever going to succeed in weight loss is to remove ourselves from the rest of the world, check into a ranch for 6 months, work out 6+ hours a day & eat 1200 or fewer calories to compensate for it. I'd like to say I'm living proof that that method couldn't be further from the truth. Especially, if you can't afford to take a 6 month leave of absence from YOUR LIFE.
When you do it like that - check out for weeks on end to "deal with the weight" - integration back into a normal existence is often extremely unsuccessful. Your life is happening now - all of it. You can't just put certain pieces of it on hold to go deal with other more pressing issues, because what then happens is that the stuff you put on hold becomes the pressing issue. You have to live the whole thing - all at once. It isn't always pretty, but at least then the pieces all move together.
My psychological issues are intrinsically tied to my weight (and the gain or loss thereof). Learning to live a COMPLETE life with ease means that eventually my body will find it's own ease and will settle at a weight that is comfortable. THAT'S something that I can get behind and continue to believe in.
& poured myself a double shot of grape Spark!
Ha...
OK, I'm totally not fooling anyone...
AM~ I had my Choc. MRS & grape Spark regular amounts.
Lunch 12:30PM ~Kept getting distracted & didn't feel the urge to eat until this time. 3 mo. ago I would have been going.. come on Noon... I'm starving & poking my stomach every 5 min. telling it to shut up & stop growling. 1.5c. spinach & lettuce salad with 5 small green olives & 1 Tbs. Italian dressing, 1HB egg, 1 clementine, 1 small dark choc. mousse jello cup (will pawn other 5 off on hubby) I totally wasn't impressed & won't be eating it again.
~As far as pity the foo title~ I TOTALLY wish I'd heard of Advocare back in Oct... or like anytime in the past 5 years... well now is as good of a time as ever. I'm sorry that I'm SOOO Excited about it, but seriously you'd be too after trying for 6 years to dump almost 35lbs. now. That's 1 BIG A$$ bag of dog kibble I'm not carrying around on my body anymore! I'm not worried when I go in my closet to look for clothes anymore, or go into VS to get a bra. It was always my personal joke that they don't sell fat people clothes at VS because they don't want fat people wearing them... well I can now go there & find my size & that means I'm not one of those "fat people" anymore & hopefully in a few months I'll be able to post i'm once again one of those "skinny people".
I find myself now "these days" in that mythical place that every "morbidly obese" (according to my height/wt. chart when I'd finally started & gave up that just exercise & water would be enough) person only dreams is possible, but never expects to find. The place where all of a sudden, all of "this" just gets...well...easy.
I pack my lunches and prep my dinners, I have my workout schedule & Zumba classes, I'm managing at my job & not worried about what might happen if the granite counter of goodness has something on it at the office, and I have my general plan for the week & how it's going to turn out & most of the time, I'm not that far off! Nothing seems unmanageable, or insurmountable, or impossible. In fact, spring has sprung and everything is looking pretty great! I'm even not hitting snooze as often (unless i'm sick or Gina was interfering with it)
Deep down I know that no one's taking anything from me, because I'm not in a place anymore where I'm going to let them have it. I like my "easy". I've grown very fond of my "easy" and I'm getting quite comfortable in it. So to those that want to take away my "easy" I say - GO GET YOUR OWN EASY!!! *cough* it's for sale online at: ADVOCARE or on the link next to this blog.
One of the major things that always held me back from losing weight and keeping it off in the past was this idea of "easy". I didn't think it was possible. Because it was so unattainable in my mind, I figured it was pointless to even try working towards it, other than thinking exercise was the key to staying skinny like I'd learned over the last decade was the way to do so. That & not to have kids would keep me skinny (obviously, that theory didn't work). It was too far in the distance to be seen - it could only be imagined. Not focusing too hard on the distant future and what it might or might not look like. For me, I know that I'm about to enter uncharted territory as far as my weight is concerned that I haven't seen in 6 years. But, there's an ease that comes with that too because every day I live right now, I know that all I'm doing is taking it one day at a time, and that's all that matters. That's all I can control. Today is mine. Tomorrow will be mine tomorrow & not until. 20, 25 more pounds from now, I'm still going to be living - one day at a time. (And hopefully with as much ease as I've learned to enjoy these past 2 months).
It was also a shock to me to learn that forgetting to eat constantly could also FINALLY be easy... or at least MUCH easier. It's ok to "only eat 1 scoop" & then stop, it will still be there the next day. Or to not eat my fill or money's worth at the AUC2E buffet, or put something back in the fridge for the next meal. But that's also not the easiest fact to digest. As fat people, it is somehow drilled into our subconscious on a daily basis that the only way we are ever going to succeed in weight loss is to remove ourselves from the rest of the world, check into a ranch for 6 months, work out 6+ hours a day & eat 1200 or fewer calories to compensate for it. I'd like to say I'm living proof that that method couldn't be further from the truth. Especially, if you can't afford to take a 6 month leave of absence from YOUR LIFE.
When you do it like that - check out for weeks on end to "deal with the weight" - integration back into a normal existence is often extremely unsuccessful. Your life is happening now - all of it. You can't just put certain pieces of it on hold to go deal with other more pressing issues, because what then happens is that the stuff you put on hold becomes the pressing issue. You have to live the whole thing - all at once. It isn't always pretty, but at least then the pieces all move together.
My psychological issues are intrinsically tied to my weight (and the gain or loss thereof). Learning to live a COMPLETE life with ease means that eventually my body will find it's own ease and will settle at a weight that is comfortable. THAT'S something that I can get behind and continue to believe in.
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